since the net is down
i ended up doing off days with fern in the morning
then i went to do admin things
like replacing all the name tags of the license folders
help ernita tear papers into half as rough papers

i only changed capts yesterday
means i'll need to change the fo today
plus write down all emergency procedure dates that have mismatch in the system against their files
also updating the bidding things
and there's this SIM thingy a pilot Anastasia just sent me
skimmed through the info, i didn't understand a thing..?

yesterday
while Rocade was down
i was watching youtube
some IT guy came over and told me to stop
or he can send letter to my school to report me for displinary actions...
at that moment
i have the urge to smash the big window behind me and jump onto the skytrain way and get run over
but it'd make a scene and cause ruckus
people might miss their flights
yep the only reason why i didnt jump
wait
maybe i can't even break the glass....
having way too much sucidal thoughts recently
i still think drowning is the best way to die.
sliting wrists doesn't sound exactly exciting...

time to get back to work.

i have the feeling since yesterday people are treating me more distant and cold
maybe my imagination
*shrugs*
now i cant wait for the next 2 months to get out of here.