doing landing on a daily basis
check through all the loft SIM documents and identified who are the ones who have yet given their doc. despite having completed the SIM
not important but called some pilots to inform them about duty changes
blah

today continuing with AR IR check + landing + mass mail
then i'll see how
Daniel went to sit in front as a officer,
so Ravi's back to his own seat.
no more youtubing i guess... that's sad...

there's a bug in my room last night
oh and i hate my dad
the first time i told him
he came in
seconds later
he told me to stop thinking so much and go sleep
2nd time
i called him again
he said to wait
then he went to fetch my mum who's coming back from work.

then
immediately after my mom's home, he came to my room
if you hear sound,
tell me
i need to get rid of the bug.

fml
he didn't believe me at all
and he only said that so that my mum wouldn't scold him should i complain and scream
so of course i just ignored him.
i don't care
my mum can scold me for all i care
i mean what's with all that fakeness?
he was so god damn free before mom was back
yet he brush it off easily.
when mom's back
he start suddenly become so nice
as though trying to pacify me/my mom
i hate it
this fakeness.
it's obvious he didn't believe me
and neither my mom too

i wish the bug will bite me
maybe call up a whole army
and bite me to death
this fucking shit
i'm having way to much suicide thoughts recently.
but i'm actually enjoying it.

the song
"io mi chiamo"
has 2 parts where there's gunshots
i'm one who usually all panicky,
thus always trembling
well
at least my hands are always trembling
but somehow whenever i hear those 2 parts
i can calm down.