did one more set of tags for the gradesheet files.
edited recencies ( now i have 10 to chase instead of 3 -.- )
did landings
did some of the SIM date spreadsheets

i guess that's it?


yea i dont really have much to update...
didnt sleep much yesterday
later going to check out the university where my JLPT will be held (on sunday)
tomorrow it's my cousin's 21th birthday
so happy belated birthday to her first~

edited into spreadsheet for all captains's loft date, IR and AR . i'll need to write another date as well as planned future. but i dont know when
and i did landing from 8jun till 25jun
finally the problem is gone

6 pilots owe me medical license
i'll catch 3 today
one sent me his after i emailed to them all yesterday evening
one says he'll give tomorrow
one is OAB status
two are on flight.
one gave to ernita
i'll catch those on flight....
did i make a mistake in my maths...? ; _ ;

i'm back on twitter
@SakiyamaShinya

yesterday Gil came to changi terminal 3
i wonder what made him think that Jetstar is at terminal 3....
i didn't meet up with him eitherways




I FOUND A NEW PAIRING!!!



DENMARK X PRUSSIA!!





sadly fanfiction.net has only one page.
but there are nice ones out there

>Skirmish Brothers
>DenmarkPrussia Ficlet
>The Chair



DA BEST ONE EVER!!



> Never Will You Leave Me



the above story is exactly something i want to read for RusPru
yandere, non con yet sweet and bitter love
sadly there werent exactly any as hot as this... well maybe soluble is,
i know there's a similar one for RusAme
but since i couldnt find it, it's probably removed.

( well i do love CreamPuffBunny's stories as well though; ALL HER STORIES )

but nonetheless

to OlyOzens who wote "Never will you leave me"

a big danke to you~!!! 

ok
i dont remember what i did on friday
but since i filled my logbook minus the reflection already
i suppose it's fine

saturday....
went to Scape to eat at the AKB48 cafe with my bro... then bought things... till around night time...
funny
the guy gave me 2 spoons for the cup of ice cream i bought...
i thought my bro and I looked quite similar...
i wonder how many times have we been mistaken to be lovers... -.-
sad

sunday
stayed at home i think...? i dont really remember...
had a dream
i'll just say the ending
at a big dining table
my supposedly-friends (since i cant really see their faces)
sat down with a plate of fried rice with some chili on the table
we were going to commit mass suicide
i briefly remember i made the decision to eat the chili which is poisoned, and i know it is.
i remembered getting very high after eating
and was laughing like a mad man
before i went to the toilet,
the scene changed to my house
where my friend told my mom to show me the result.
i looked
grade A for internship
i laughed and choked and coughed out blood before i died and woke up in real life.

got so scared at first
but come to think of it
that's a good way to die isn't it~

60 more days till end of internshirp
am i counting down to the end of my life i wonder~~



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did loft checking and writing down expiry dates
chased licenses
updated licenses
cleared June unhandled revisions

lunch someone treated us to nasi bryani
bleh too spicy
and jetstar gave dumpling.
catherine gave me one
a cabin crew, jamie gave me 2
now i'm proud to have 4 with the awesome smell of pandan leaves!!

since the net is down
i ended up doing off days with fern in the morning
then i went to do admin things
like replacing all the name tags of the license folders
help ernita tear papers into half as rough papers

i only changed capts yesterday
means i'll need to change the fo today
plus write down all emergency procedure dates that have mismatch in the system against their files
also updating the bidding things
and there's this SIM thingy a pilot Anastasia just sent me
skimmed through the info, i didn't understand a thing..?

yesterday
while Rocade was down
i was watching youtube
some IT guy came over and told me to stop
or he can send letter to my school to report me for displinary actions...
at that moment
i have the urge to smash the big window behind me and jump onto the skytrain way and get run over
but it'd make a scene and cause ruckus
people might miss their flights
yep the only reason why i didnt jump
wait
maybe i can't even break the glass....
having way too much sucidal thoughts recently
i still think drowning is the best way to die.
sliting wrists doesn't sound exactly exciting...

time to get back to work.

i have the feeling since yesterday people are treating me more distant and cold
maybe my imagination
*shrugs*
now i cant wait for the next 2 months to get out of here.

ok
spent the whole day doing report o.o
apparently the ACRAT and INSRAT date report still have some error, like the supposedly next planned check date is redundant, so i need to check and edit.
 The LOFT is fristly, the expiry is half year not one year, so i had to edit some, plus i need to crosscheck with everyone and write down the missing names, as well as why are they missing and when were their checks, then print out again, if there;s still a next check date, check it if is it an error and the process repeats.
yep
hectic yesterday~


64 more days!!


https://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=384719171592681&set=a.324404664290799.79117.324061024325163&type=1&theater
holy shit remulus black so handsome!!
damn that lucius.. look so awesome like Hetalia's Fritz, but i really hate that character.
sirius black give me the feeling of a deliquent...
luna looks so cute
severus look like some japanese boy...

so ive heard about my friend...
gosh to think i know so little about my friend...

*sigh*
i fail as a friend

anyway
yesterday
did typing names
and edited some license expity reports

well the report took up most of the noon

still cant do any landings



check out "My manipulated Misfortune" on fanfiction
anticipate each chapter yet when a new chapter is out
it never fails to depress me for at least 2 days...
check it out for me da
warning: rape and misuse of medical equipments

ok
what i did yesterday
started typing pilots' names out for filing purposes
chased licenses
tried to do some landing but end up failing thanks to the system

today:
finishing typing names
re checking all loft grade sheets
i think i can clear most of the loft today
confirm must drag till tomorrow de

so
gilbert flying off soon again
i wanna visit an alysum
ehehe
curious
i want to learn psychology

ok i'm hungry

last friday

chased licenses
needed to chase extra 5 people
edited my loft spreadsheet but i think still quite messy
edited gradesheets into the recencies

proud to say i haven't done any reflections

saturday went to kendo Club for a try
not bad actually
though i'd rather they give me a quick crash course as i want to use the long sword than the short one..
but i wont go anymore
since my friends are going to upgrade
no point in me going there alone
*shrugs*

Gilbert flying to malaysia again from tomorrow till friday
but it actually feels nice to wake up and can chat with someone~
i cleared Flower extreme!!! *high* (  Jubeat )
and Evans!!!

ok
so i'm left with 67 more days
i'm gonna have to persuade my mom not to let me extend

oh
why didnt i do the reflections?
simple
i was busy saving fanfictions
apparently they purged all smutty fics
and one of my favourite author, Beatrice the Golden
deactivated her account
now i regret not saving her works
so i spend yesterday trying to save as much fics as i can
lest i regret it anymore

67 days
i've been counting down since 90 plus days
damn it only made it look so slow...
seriously
only 20+ days have passed since then?
that's kinda...sad...yea...

check out pewdiepie's amnesia game!!
That dude totally rocks!!!

yesterday must be my shortest post ever hahas

anyway
yesterday chased licenses
did some landing till error came out again
worked with fern to check FO leave
edited some licenses based on weeks ago's checklist i did.

now i'm left with around 20 mrore out of 70 to chase
ernita tells me theer's more....

ate lunch in office.
managed to take photo with lots of people since it's expired film
took a photo with the french pilot~~

chased for licenses
updating into system pilots' leave bidding requests.

pilots surprisingly reply to mail sent ony to them rather than mass mail..
i think i have a new type of clothing i like

short trench coat with skirt, with/without leggings and with boots. Though i still prefer if there's a scarf but sadly singapore temperature...

rant warning again

oh
i didnt update yesterdaY?

checking the SEP planned for people up till end dec 2012
went around chasing people for their licenses
kept asking around what is their names
or else i'll just ask the same person twice and get "not" scolded
day 3 of my life i feel like cutting my wrist.
i think i might just go ahead with it.

today
same
most probably
or maybe + doing some inserting of the leaves requested by pilots.
the reason i dont cut.
i dont have the disinfection liquid thingy and neither do i have bandages.
worse of them all
i dont have a reason to cover my hands all the time because singapore is just so frickin hot so it doesn't make sense if i go out wearing long sleeves
yea and some prayer thingy
uhh
like i'll min go at least twice a month
and like they'll chop something on my hand
so they'll recognise.

or maybe
i should just heck it all
and just cut
if they find out
so be it.
yep
sounds like a plan.

today ernita wont help me identify pilots.
i'll have to get a pen knife soon.
hell even if i've changed my name
i dont' want to be sociable.
i spent most of my childhood in school as a loner
since primary school in primary 2
so that makes me a loner for more than 12 years
i only changed my name like... 3 years ago
damn right if people can change
but i cant take any more changes
and neither can i take this kind of shitty stress.
i dont mind talking to strangers
my problem?
talking in a crowded place.

gil went genting and wont be back till tuesday night which practically means wednesday
so here i am spamming his whatsapp like there's no tomorrow
went to cousin's house warming on sunday
ended up sleeping and eating.

last friday
finished checking all IR and AR and sent out email by 6.15 or around there

around 40 people?
left after i received 10 this morning.
ok
gotta stalk people
i rather talk to them than call them.
btw
i'm spamming gil a fanfic

so Francis if you see this and want me to spam you s fanfic, tell me da~
i'll gladly write one for you~
though there might be hints of slight yaoi ohohohoho~~~

doing landing on a daily basis
check through all the loft SIM documents and identified who are the ones who have yet given their doc. despite having completed the SIM
not important but called some pilots to inform them about duty changes
blah

today continuing with AR IR check + landing + mass mail
then i'll see how
Daniel went to sit in front as a officer,
so Ravi's back to his own seat.
no more youtubing i guess... that's sad...

there's a bug in my room last night
oh and i hate my dad
the first time i told him
he came in
seconds later
he told me to stop thinking so much and go sleep
2nd time
i called him again
he said to wait
then he went to fetch my mum who's coming back from work.

then
immediately after my mom's home, he came to my room
if you hear sound,
tell me
i need to get rid of the bug.

fml
he didn't believe me at all
and he only said that so that my mum wouldn't scold him should i complain and scream
so of course i just ignored him.
i don't care
my mum can scold me for all i care
i mean what's with all that fakeness?
he was so god damn free before mom was back
yet he brush it off easily.
when mom's back
he start suddenly become so nice
as though trying to pacify me/my mom
i hate it
this fakeness.
it's obvious he didn't believe me
and neither my mom too

i wish the bug will bite me
maybe call up a whole army
and bite me to death
this fucking shit
i'm having way to much suicide thoughts recently.
but i'm actually enjoying it.

the song
"io mi chiamo"
has 2 parts where there's gunshots
i'm one who usually all panicky,
thus always trembling
well
at least my hands are always trembling
but somehow whenever i hear those 2 parts
i can calm down.

let me think what i did yesterday...


landing
updating recencies
start checking on the AR IR licenses for pilots.

my plan is
either today or tomorrow i'll mass mail to them
monday i'll call them

yep

Guo Ji Jiao Yi Suo
why isn't the israeli guy and Japanese girl there...
aww they missed out so much fun~
and the poor german guy
who got punishment twice since he lost twice during the debating...
can't wait for the next episode~!

yep
check out anmesia reactions on youtube
it makes me not that scared anymore~
: )

did landing and day off~
compiled the whole list of annual leave for FO AND CAPT
till end 2012

sent Francis the song i like
his reaction
"ewww"
that was exactly what i expected~

went to eat at Jurong Point
it's been 3 months since i last been there
lots of things changed...

dont wanna update much

so
did landing
did D/O check for captains till end dec, FO till Aug 10
I DONT WANNA CALL THE PILOTS TO CHASE FOR THEIR LICENCES!!!
*weep*
i don't understand their english..
and i'm intimidated by them...
i'm so scared...
*sob sob*


yesterday night watched Death Note
surprisingly they were showing it
but damn  i was so tired yesterday
half of the Flight ops went for meeting/training
yea
i delayed the checking
but seems like i cant avoid it today...
why can't i just email them... *sob sob*

bought pasta again from the kopitiam downstairs of my house
the uncle finally remembered me and my order
i mean like
come on
i've only ordered pasta from your shop
for over 20 times
always around 6.45pm on weekdays
how would you not remember me....

listening to old songs
made me realise
one of my favourite song
"all the things she said"
is actually potraying lesbian
and was sung by russians...

not only that
songs like "numa numa"
was in romanian...

no wonder i loved language so much~
i had so much fun singing when i was a kid

but really
"all the things she said"
is really a nice song
same goes for
"all rise" " flying to the moon and back" "turn back time"
" blue"
well my old time favourites~

last friday
worked with Fern about checking future annual leaves of flight deck crew since she is still new to Rocade and i'm free to look after her
as well as landing recencies.

saturday
slept and gamed.
simple and sweet.

sunday
woke up at 5am ( usually i wake at 5.30 for work )
to get ready to go sentosa
since Gil wanted me to go.
and just when i thought we weren't going to beach area,
we went there
and i was wearing clothes and shoes not meant for beach
and damn the weather
i'd kill for some wind.
Not exactly sunny
but the heat is killing me.

Gil and I left the group
and went on our own ways so long as we are back by lunch which is 1130
and sadly, most of the stores aren't open until it's 10
so we walked.
everywhere
and ended up going into a maritime muesuem
but at least it was worth it.
though i hope they would show more about the Europe side
meh i'm biased to Europe.

So today,
i'm back at work
Gil's back at camp from 9 to 5
can i work 9 to 5~~~ eheheh
she's in holiday
damn i'm jealous
intern till 25/8

81 more days + 2 weeks (if they want me to stay back since it's still my holidays)

can someone just make time
speed away?
with a
"boom!"
and i'm left with 30 more days?
please?
ok fine
40 more days.
*sigh*

So
did the pilot illegality thingy
which is taking note who illegal and write down the number of ALO, D/O and OAB they have
well i ended  up compiling everyone.
of course i did landing too

there's this uhh... stranger?
who came to talk to me when i was heading to take the train
she said that she always see me around that timing going to Changi to work
and how we always board the same train
and how she always see me chase after the train etc.
frankly speaking
i never notice her
yea
i don't have that good memory to remember everything i see
not mentioning i'm mostly glued to my fanfiction that i read on the way

oh by the way
Doppelganger is updated
do check it out~
> < Gilbert is in trouble!! Noo...


I'm eating Fish and Co with the 2 other intern later
so this will be the 1st time where all my colleagues are here and going for lunch
but i'm not joining them~

ended sleeping at 12 last night
to finish a torrent file
since the torrenting of "Rise of Prussia.iso" is at 90% and i don't wanna drag it another day
but from the comment i read
it's in russian....
please tell me it's not true....
that's the only file that have seeds and i can download it...

Ravi says that i can go on an observaation flight
in a sense that it isn't related to having airport pass or not
but i'll need Al's permission as well as to sign a form
well
that's not my top piority
compared to me wanting an airport pass..

sucks that i have a temporary one
but i need someone else who's permanent pass to accompany me
and no one wants to go inside...


Ravi just walked past
told me to smile -.- lols
then told me the pilot that's looking at the flight time right now is Ryan's father
i just remembered
after Ryan left, he flew to England with 2 other girls ( perhaps his sisters? )

in short


i'm jealous

everybody that i know are suddenly travelling if they aren't studying

England, Japan, Czech republic, Tai wan, Hong Kong, America, Finland, Australia....

*sigh*
someone bring me out to Europe!!